



one year.
365 days.
a seemingly long time ago.
i can't believe it. at this time a year ago i was on an airplane heading home after 6 months in africa.
where has the time gone? what have i done since then? have i made a difference here, in america? i mean seriously?
there is something about being overseas that changes you. your view on life and love and compassion is flipped. you have a new appreciation for your loved ones and a new appreciation for complete strangers. every day feels like an adventure. you feel like you are actually making an eternal difference. kingdom work.
and then before you know it you are home. and the desire and motivation to change the world lessens. your focus becomes distracted. you become selfish. i have become selfish. my focus has been predominately on school and in comparison to people daily dying without knowing my savior, school seems like a waste of time.
if this is where God really wants me right now am i using this time wisely? am i actively involved in eternal things or am i here in the momentarily earthly things?
do people see Jesus in me? through me? in my actions? in my words?
i need a break. i need renewal. i need to experience the God that was in africa and the charismatic hallelujah, praise Jesus faith once again.
it is real. He is real. i know it. i believe it.